The ONE the only

I HATE MATH

2005-09-28T18:13:25Z

I HATE MATH...ALOT
school is intense
work sucks
she is amazing
i love every time i die

that is all

wow

2005-09-10T05:49:19Z

she really deleted me from her friends list

its great to see how easily she gave up on this

im sure ill hear some shit about this because i am the asshole

that is if she even sees this

.....wow

college?...who?

2005-08-23T07:32:03Z

so all of that hope i had lost in my self has been completley gained back.

school has started and im beggining that new chapter that everyone keeps talking about, and i couldnt be happier

its funny how not only a week ago everything seemed like complete shit and now its hard to even rememebr what that feels like.

for the first time in a long time i have faith and confidence in myself.

there is this girl, she makes me nervous, she gets mad at me, i break her heart. but you know what? even when shit goes real wrong for

a minuet, things always seem to right themselves. I love her no matter what the title on our relationship is.

i just hope she knows that

well i guess thats all for now

oh and p.s. i have the most kick ass schedule of all time, ask me, and i'll prove it to you

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-08-17T03:21:00

2005-08-17T08:23:10Z

i think ive lost all hope in myself

...fuck, i need to get my act together before next week

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-08-14T15:00:00

2005-08-14T20:00:46Z

umm last night was great

....kind of like her

jager bombs are not my friend...

ohhh

2005-08-05T07:00:54Z

i hate this, i dont want to do it anymore

oh, please hang in there, we will both be better soon

"cause you belong with me, not swallowed in the sea"

oh and ps- i love you

white russiansss

2005-07-31T23:37:38Z

so this was a pretty good weekend i guess

syqq party at john's friday

drinking white russians all saturday night

being drunk two nights in a row....noice

yeah i still work alot, but thats a good thing

i worry about this one girl.....a whole lot
i hope she will be ok

on a good note, i purchased a 5 dollar peacoat
that was awsome

wow

2005-07-26T07:04:29Z

i cant belive half of the shit that has been going on these past few days, things ive heard about and things people have said to me....pretty fucked up

especially coming from people that i have been nothing but nice and genuine to and have done nothing but cared for....that just hurts

but hey, i guess this is another one of those "life lessons" that i will just have to learn

so i will end this with a big FUCK YOU, to all of you because i am so close to giving up on you all

yo momma

2005-07-25T08:01:49Z

im seriously sick of it all.....

but where oh where do i go to get away from it?
work maybe? im not sure

on another note, i do enjoy silly girls and their company, they are probably what keep me sane

and as for you, ive been missing you

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-07-22T01:54:00

2005-07-22T06:54:16Z

what to do?

"hope, paniced and pushing for a good spot in eacother's lives, we're starved, tangled up in everything, could be anything. Impressing, with a popular smile, dont you miss the rush of falling in love, after all the times of disaster..."

salad

2005-07-19T07:16:22Z

so i made a lot of salad today

i also got three shots.....fuck

then i spent 5 hours at the mall

dude.....weak

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-07-14T01:31:00

2005-07-14T06:42:20Z

You never cease to amaze me....honestly.

Some how, you are able to put me in these moods where i think and think and think but i cant seem to get a grasp on any of it.

Even if i can't put it into words, i understand what you are feeling and what you were talking about tonight.

i would really like to spend more time talking about this stuff.

here goes nothing....

2005-07-12T05:53:41Z

hey college,....you're all mine.....bitch

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-07-08T01:38:00

2005-07-08T06:44:13Z

i do belive i have some growing up to do...

to the few it may concern: please still be here when i come back

expectations

2005-07-07T07:04:45Z

"I'm sorries" and "it's my faults" can only go so far in this "i like you" game".
Because when communications fail and expectaions aren't met, our relationship is truly put to the test.

We try and we fail, day in and day out. And everytime, it grows hareder to bear.

I wont say i wish things were simpler, because simpler would be easier and you're worth much more than that.

In whatever we are, be it bestfriends or more, i want you to know that i won't ever give up.

The road only gets harder from here. but thats ok with me

You will be fine

I will be fine

We will be fine

"....not swallowed in the sea"

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-07-06T01:09:00

2005-07-06T06:12:26Z

im 18 now.....bitch

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-07-04T02:38:00

2005-07-04T07:40:09Z

why do i get like this? maybe im just greedy, and a little selfish. ok, alot selfish.

sometimes i feel like i would do anything for your attention...

if u c jordan

2005-07-03T23:11:16Z

jordan comes home tonight.....bitchesss

ouch

2005-07-02T06:39:13Z

my nose hurts

so i realized something last night, and im really happy about it

"you put me on a shelf, and kept me for yourself, i can only blame myself, you can only blame me"

how did it ever get this way?

2005-06-29T06:55:23Z

this is the strangest feeling ever

and i dont even know what it is....

im so confused

ifnotthenyeah @ 2005-06-26T02:04:00

2005-06-26T07:10:40Z

i really need to stop being so selfish, things are so much better when im not...

"and incase you were wondering, you are like a hurRicane to me"

syqq mosh

2005-06-23T08:01:56Z

things are looking up

her
great friends
great music
work is good
birthday coming up
car soon
other things

ross is leaving for 6 weeks, that sucks....alot

young and the restless is the most frustrating show ever

NEBRASKA IS FOR LOVERS

2005-06-17T17:44:51Z

but not really.....

so uh, 7 cities in one day....nice

lets see, i WAS in florida having a nice time, and now im in Nebraska....partying hard
the only thing keeping me sane is my cousin Ross, thank god

i REALLY miss certain people, i cant wait to get home, 3 more days.....

yeah so

2005-06-05T06:11:36Z

so things have been really weird and confusing, however that doesnt mean they are nothing short of amazing.

work is good and all

jordan is leaving tomorrow, that really will suck

i hate not knowing what is going to happen in my life, everything is a blur

nola today, that was good, got a cd

idk what else, thats all for now

llamada

2005-05-25T19:16:48Z

the new laser tag place is totally nuts....

work at five today,

jordan doesnt like the spill canvas.....lame